So I have been waiting until I can post some good info or an update about what is going on with me and Tina. I will probably be finding out if she is eligible for the slim fast diet for tumors regimen in the next few days. That would be nice and is probably going to happen. I am not really nervous about having chemo. Realistically I have not had much time to think about it, but when I do I think of friends who are on it or have been on it. I think of 4 year old Tommy down the street and wish he didn't have to have it.

There is so much information out there that it is kind of overwhelming to try and optimize what you are supposed to be doing. What vitamins should you take? What water should you drink? How much should you exercise when you have something like this? Am I talking to the right specialists? BTW- this is absolutely not an invitation to make suggestions about any of those items.

I am grateful for the friends and family in positions to help, suggest helpful avenues, provide support, give advice, etc. Very grateful.

The staples are gone (I do miss those), I hope the seizures are gone. Any additional treatments in the short term will be undramatic. I am hanging on to the mullet hawk for a little bit longer to make sure people know I really like having a mullet and a mohawk. All in all, there will not be many fireworks regarding Tina. If she disappears, I will be stoked and tell everyone. If she gets bigger, I don't think I will need to wait for an MRI to notice.

I am sort of converting this blog, in the short term, to a soap box on ideas and mental notes to share. It was that or old mormon recipes, or mortgage info. I can't stand talking about mortgages sometimes and there are enough recipe blogs. There are several reasons for the change of topic:

1. Faced with personal mortality at 31 and experiencing the mortality of my child at age 29 has made me think a lot about what is important and what is not. I normally do not pleasure in public pontification, nor do I fancy fables, but I consider the most important job in my life to properly raise the 5 year old that brings joy to me and everyone in her little world. The little one on the way has many lessons to learn too. I know this scares some that I am in charge of this task, but the majority of the rearin' is handled by their Mom, Alisa (who is a great mother). I am more a teller that a writer, but allow me to share ideas with you and with them and gather your input and feedback. I am rarely serious. That is one of the most important lessons I have learned- not to take things or oneself too seriously.

2. That said I have enjoyed writing these posts and hearing from people about them and what they thought. I have had a lot more ideas flowing though my head and some of this medication makes me forget them, so I am going to start writing them down. Some of you will be scared, but I can't imagine too many. Maybe we will do guest posts of exceptional content or humor?
What would be a better name for a blog festival... blogapalooza, burning blog, or blogchella?

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